I never in my life have ever had problems with my emotions ( I had no emotions, couldn't have any to be a good football player it seemed in h/s) and still to this day do not with the exception of one thing. My ex-girlfriend.
We broke up rather abruptly some odd 4-5 months ago. I told her that I never loved her by mistake. (we dated for 3.5 years) It was incredibly wrong for me to say those harsh of words. What I really meant was that I do not know what love is.
She has finally moved on, but I have not. It has gotten so bad, I do not know what to do anymore. I feel like there is a huge piece of me that is missing. Not to long ago she asked me if I cared if she dated someone, for some idiotic reason I said that I did not care. I really did, but I still could not show my real emotions toward her. She started dating a guy like a week ago and it is absolutely horrible. I can't stop thinking about her, heck, my family mentions her all the time to me and it makes me miss the special things that we had going even more.
Is this love that I am feeling? I sweared that I would never say those four letters again in my life unless I really meant it, that is why I am afraid to say it to her in fear of breaking her heart again. There is nothing more I have ever cared about so much in my life.
What do you guys & gals think? Sorry, talking about my emotions is very hard to do, but I am at a dead end and need help.